No one ever tells you how hard life is when you are unemployed. It is just an experience one has to go through. Torture and stress. That is how I feel at the meantime.
Ever since my contract expired I have not been able to sleep peacefully at night. Not knowing how will I pay my bills, keeps me tossing and tossing side to side. The thought of my condition is breaking my heart. I can't change it can I? This is just how I feel and I don't know how to deal with it. Sometimes I pray to God and say "Can I get my job back?" As if he is going to respond to me at the that moment.
Thanks to myself that I did not let my situation consume me. I have started exercising every morning to keep my body healthy. Exercising helps with killing time. I have also started planting some vegetables. When I was working I did not have much time to do other things rather than being at work. I am very grateful for the positive change that I have made in my life. Sometimes I read books or write some stories. It helps in sharing your ideas and thought. You also get to read about other people's ideas or experiences.
Some people tend to treat you bad when you are unemployed. I often see people treating me differently than the others but not everyone. To some people it's like you are nothing or you are not trying to look for a job. While they don't understand your circumstances. People who are not close to you tend to judge you as if you had put yourself in that situation when it's not like that. I have been excluded in outings and picnics. It almost feels like I am no longer there or u have suddenly become unimportant to them. With all that I am facing I just know that there are people who are supporting me.
One lesson that I have learned is that you should never be choosy when it comes to work. As long as it brings food to the table you should take it. The jobs that we actually want takes time. Any job is a job. I engage myself in job hunting groups. I send job application emails and go to job hunting. I am forever busy looking for opportunities and job posts. Luckily there are plenty of things to do online that can give me small cents that I usually use to buy data and other small bills. We should really thank the person who invented these things.
Although loosing my job hurts but I am learning to accept and heal. Day by Day it will pass and will finally accept. I am really proud of the new me. I have never thought I could be this strong. Here I am surviving and making it work. Without the support of my family and my love I don't know what I would have been. I wish other unemployed people out there would make it work too and not let their situation kill their dreams. They have to hang in there and try and hustle.
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